There will always be distance. I'll never be someone's everything. I don't want to be. But, I want to be part of someone's everything.

I feel like shit. I want to sing. I probably will on the way home. But, I want to really sing. I just want to pour everything out. It used to just be something I was good at, but it makes me feel good. It's about the only thing that does now. What a blessing a voice is. It makes me different. I hope it makes me special. I just, I love it. I'm on youtube now. Like legitimately. If I wrote a song about all these blog posts it would probably cause half of the world to commit suicide.

I need to remember that I can't force I-thou moments. They just need to happen. I just miss having them all the time. I need to get back to work.