A getaway.

What a great weekend. Ojai is beautiful. I will definitely miss driving once I migrate east.


I am in love with being a counselor. I loved being able to brighten some kids' weekend. I loved bonding with some staff, and I loved getting away. I missed formal, and I miss being with my friends. But, they're not really my friends anymore. I hate it and it hurts. But, I've learned that I need to move on. People are selfish, conceded, and get caught up in themselves easily. I guess I'm just one to be left behind. One day I won't be anymore. For few I am someone to keep, but for most it's quite the contrary. I hope one day people will want to keep me.

I hate you mom. I can't believe you tried to lie and make me look like a violent crazy bitch. Wait, I can believe it, and it was you.

I'm tired. I need to sleep. Facebook makes everything worse. I hate looking into people's lives I used to be a major part of. I feel so left out and lost.

I want to be like Denver from Beloved. I want to focus on the present. But I feel i'm exactly like her. I rely on other people too much, I rely too much on gratification and the presence of others. I'm good on my own. I'm good.