Friday, February 18, 2011

I can't decide which I indenitfy with more..

“The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.”
or...
“The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.”


When I feel love, I feel incredible.
When I feel pain, I feel disintegrated.

So what if I'm sensitive? At least I'm not insensitive to your feelings. I'll take in whatever you say, regardless if I agree with it or not. At least I listen. Yes, it will make me depressed, but yes I will go out of my way to make things right. I can't do this anymore.

I'm done. I'm done. I'm done.

I'm unworthy of gracing your presence. I hate you.

You promised.

You tricked me you stupid bitch.

I thought it would never happen again. Wow, what a shocker.

I just want to sleep.

Never.

Can you just be fucking honest? If what I did was so "small and unintentional" why do I deserve this?
Are you over me?
Are you content with your friends and boyfriend?
I hope so.
I hope you're happy.

I fucking love you.
I'm in so much pain.

Congratulations, you've restored the sinking feeling that used to rush through me whenever I thought about my best friend. I sink because there's no one there to catch me anymore. No one.

I spent all my days off with you because you were more important and loving than anyone.
I thought you were different.
I thought I knew you...

Well, you're worse. Worse than her because you watched how she destroyed me.
Why did you fucking bother?

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